easter again mum.... happy easter, sorry you're not here to give u an easter egg!! hope there's plenty of chocolate in heaven!!! dad gave me a primark voucher and chocs, ian got beer and ethan got a truck, an egg and toys!!! havent sent you a wee msg for a while.... just a horrible time mum, you'll know wots going on anyway!!! love you mum, its getting easier missing you but i know it will never ever go away, love you xxxxx

hi mum sorry its been a while since i put a wee message on. Had a bit of a bad time there, if you were here you would have seen it coming and probably stopped it before it got the way it did. Anyway im better now. Ian ran a half marathon mum, he did it for the neonatal unit, crosshouse, think you would be really proud of him, in fact know you would, he done so well mum. Ethan is getting so big mum and cheekier by the minute but he is so full of fun and keeps me smiling!!! I still miss you mum, talk to you and hope you hear me!!! Andrew doing okay, he sold the old camper van and bought a new one, the old one had sooo many memories of you which he loved but felt he couldnt go away in in without you. He's doing okay though he tells me he speaks to you every day....... Ethan finally said mum or mam today, you would have been the first or second person I told that to today but you're not here........ and I still cant believe it. Why did you have to go mum? you didnt want to go and we didnt want you to leave us. Hope you're okay mum. Love and miss you more as each day goes by xxxxx

hi mum back again, well as i said, had a crap week, dont know wot happened.... if you were here you would have probably seen it coming, you were amazing like that!!! Was sittin with brian on tuesday nite fine, having a blether and the next i was roaring crying for you........... trying to be wot you were mum, a mother, friend, wife, working mother, everything rolled into one wee person and trying to do it all well but felt too much mum. Im still waiting on a sign from you mum.. i'll keep on waiting too, luv you more than yesterday xxxxxxxxxx